Saturday, December 26, 2009
talk bout the title
pejam celik pejam celik 2009 dh hampir melabuhkan tirai
just tggl 4 hari je ag b4 2010 menjelang
ari tue..
aku g shopping2 kt Billion
then aku pn ternamapak satu benda
a book
A Diary of 2010
cute sgt
clr pink plk tue
so aku beli rr
tadaaa
kt dalam nie pn cm best je
ade planning chart 2010
calendar
world times n yg paling best Expenses account
so bleh rr aku try manage my coming expenses
.i'm.just.a.girl.
6:01 PM
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
i've just got a msg from my best friend
telling that she will further her study in accOunting at uitm shah aLam
after read the msg
aku rase cm aku bru je kehilangan something
y i felt that way?
ntah la..
aku pn xtau
my best friend
she is really my best friend..
dh nk dekat 5 tahun aku kwn ngan die
she always ngan aku,sedih & happy
never let me alone
ktorg start kwn mase Form 1
tp mase Form 1 tue xdela rapat sgt
starting from Form 2 aku rapat ngan die
ktorg bleh jd rapat cz ktorg same2 prefect..
n ade kem 4 prefect..kt kem tue r ktorg jd rapat..
ktorg wt tugas pn same2
pergi tutup pintu pagar
pergi ambik kehadiran pljr..
mase PmR..
die dpt straight A's
so die dpt g MrSm
aku sedih sgt time tue
aku takut sgt die lupekan aku
tp alhamdulillah die xlupekan aku
ktorg contact each other always until now...
sharing problems.secret.story.
skang nie..
aku rase sedih cm tue gk..
sedih sgt
at d same time aku rase happy gk
cz die dpt ape yg die nak..
to my best friend
..aku syg mg
..plz dont 4get me
..pray 4 my success
..aku mntk maaf cz aku byk sgt wt slh ngn mu
.i'm.just.a.girl.
7:16 AM
Sunday, December 20, 2009
he2
happy today
td,after bgn tdo..
ttbe je perut nie terase lapar
aku g tgk pe yg ade kt dapur
tp malangnye xde pape mknn yg bleh mengenyangkan aku
yg ade cume kuih jer..
aku bkk peti sejuk
xde pape lagi
yg ade cume ayam, udang & daging je
& i,ve decide to co0k
mule2 tue pk gk nk masak ape..
nk masak daging,aku xbape suke makan daging
nk masak udang malas nk buang kulit tue
yg tgglnye cume ayam je..
tp nk masak ape ekk ngan ayam tue??
akibat xtau memasak,aku terus masuk bilik,bkk laptop
surf internet cari resipi mskn ayam kt myresipi.com..
ingat nk msk paprik ayam..
tp agak susah
so aku memilih utk wt ayam masak halia
senang je
nasib baik mak aku balik time aku kt dapur tue
klu x ayam aku jd ayam masak lengkuas laa
ade ke lengkuas ngan halia aku bleh tertukar
haha
berkat usaha & kesabaran aku
aku baru je berjaye menghasilkan ayam masak halia yg best
actually this is my 1st try
xsgka plk rasenye amat mengagumkan..
huhu
happy =)
.i'm.just.a.girl.
8:18 PM
hmm..
dh lame blog nie x dbkk...
05:53 pm...
aku xtau nak wt pe..
dh 12 hari aku menjalani hidup sbg pljr lepasan SpM..
xde pape keje yg menarik minat aku..
mmg boring..
n aku dapat rasekan yg diri ini semakin membulat..
pe x nyer..
asyik makan je,makan tdo makan tdo..
maybe berat aku skang dh 50kg++
aku dh try kawal tp nafsu makan nie ttp ade d stp mase
cner nk buat..
smlm sekali lagi perasaan takut aku dtg
takut thinking of the coming result..
aku takut sgt..
actually aku takut xdpt masuk u..
skang kn gune sistem merit..
aku tgk syarat pengambilan tue memerlukan markah 90 utk 5s ubjek sains(2 d sc stream students)
meaning dat kena dpt sume A+ cz nilai utk A+ ialah 18
so,18 x 5 = 90
kalau lh aku xdpt masuk u..
i'll b d balack sheep of d family..
mesti mak ayah aku kecewa sbb de anak yg xdpt masuk u
msti abg2 n kakak aku kecewa
sume abg2 n kakak aku msk u & berjaye
tp aku .........
nk menyesal dh xde gunenye..
pape hal pn,aku tetap akan terus berdoa cz aku tau yg Allah tu Maha Mendengar doa2 hambanye
.i'm.just.a.girl.
2:18 AM
Saturday, December 12, 2009
boring rite now..
really2 boring..
dont know what to do.
Argh!!!
everytime everywhere just thinking of my coming result..
rase cm xsedap hati je..
is this the sign that ..
pape je lah..
tension pn de gk time nie..
mcm2 benda aku pk..
even small matter pn aku pk..
that what make me stress,i guess..
dh la phone aku rosak..
income lak xmasuk..
pe rr..
n i just quit my career as bibik kt umah sendiri..
bkn pe..penat..(actually mne de keje senang)..
ntahla..
dont know what to say..
skang nie pn aku ngah rindu kt sorg nie..
even aku tau die lgsg xrindu kt aku tp aku xtau nape aku rindu sgt kt die skang nie..
even i am nothing to him but he's everythng to me..
aku xbleh nk lupekan die..
i've try but i cant..
even aku tau die dh ade org lain..aku still berharap agi..
bodoh kn aku??
wlpn there's someone else with me rite now
but i still cant forget him..
i cant love him as much as i love the one who i missed so much..
bile aku tgk cter Boys Over Flower,ade lagu starlight tears..
dengar je lagu tue..
terus aku tringatkan die n air mata pn xdpt thn..
--starlight tears
the white starlight envelops the tears
the tears fall in the warm wind
do you feel it?
this trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way
i draw you on this white paper
the warm smile holds me
is this love?
even when i close my eyes, i see only you
i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go
because that love is you
i'm walking in my memories with you
the tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
what should i do?
even in my dreams, i miss you
i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go
because that love is you
stress + sad + worried + empty
.i'm.just.a.girl.
6:55 AM
Thursday, December 10, 2009
today..
dah 2 hari aku bebas dr perjuangan sPm..
but before that..
nk review blik psl last 3 paper..
lets start with biOlogy..
hmm,mengarut gler aku jwb..
lebih2 ag paper 3..
yg planning experiment tue..
actually aku dh bace tajuk tue..
dah penah buat pn..
tp xtau r nape ttbe je aku bley xigt..
pe agi..hentam jelah pilih enzyme..
1st tue aku pilih salivary amylase..
tp time ketua pgws tue ckp..
"masa menjawab tamat.Calon2 dikehendaki berhenti menulis"..
aku dgn pantasnye memotong 'salivary amylase'
and ntah nape tgn aku tulis enzyme pepsin.
ape kaitan enzyme tue actually??aku pn xtau..
as for Physics..
4 d first time in my life..
aku rase aku bley jawab..
maybe bb aku bace sume tajuk..
n thanks to ckgu Physics aku yg bgtu byk bg latihan kt ktorg..
Paper 3-aku pilih yg tajuk spring tue,Hooke's Law..
actually aku dh wt yg tajuk 2 tue-electromagnet..
tp aku xigt set-up of apparatus tue..
so,aku pn ambik keputusan wt yg spring tue..
& as 4 d last paper,chemistry..
seriously aku ckp..
akummg xbley buat..
absolutely.
both,paper2 & 3..
p ckgu aku ckp soaln senang je..
that all bout my spm.
kdg2 rse cm klkr je aku hadapi sPm..
blja ssh2 2 tahun tp,bile yg sbnr xleh jwb..
hmm,let bygone be bygone..
pe yg aku bley wt skang is BERDOA..
wt mase nie sume org xbley tolong aku..
satu-satunya yg bley tlg,YANG MAHA KUASA..
ntah kenape juz after the last paper..
aku terus fikirkan pasal result..
n aku rase sgt xsedap hati..
mcm2 trlintas lam kepala otak aku nie..
what if i dont get a good result??
my mom?my dad?my siblings?their feeling,how?
frustrated?dissapointed?..
so scary..
takutnyer..
today gk..kakak aku dpt result..
die dapat dekan lg..
happy gler die..
d saat die happy,aku jd sedih..
sedih memkirkan adakh aku akn dpt bergembira mcm die dgn result aku nnti??
nobody knows..
back to the title..
i am no longer bdop skolah..
aku dh xperlu nk ikut peraturan skolah..
pakai bju skolah..
bgn pagi2 nk ke skolah..
no more..
but a little bit boring staying at home..
and bcz of that..
aku meng'offer'kan diri aku nk jd bibik kt umah aku sendiri
eventhough kt umah aku dh ade sorg..
yg dh ade tue jz wt kerje dalam umah je..
lipatkain,masak,jemur kain,basuh kain..
keje2 yg kt luar umah aku wt..
cm sapu laman depan n blkg..
tiap2 ari aku sapu..
mula2 letih gk..
but dr dulu,aku nie jenis yg suka mencuci..
pape je aku suke cuci kecuali kain..
agpn aku igt kt laman blkg umah aku..
aku nk wt projek cucuk tanam..
nk tanam terung,cili & tomato..
memandangkan pokok2 ini senang dijaga..
tp projek nie belum dapat dilaksanakan sbb xde benih ag..
hehe
aku xtau nk ambik benih kt ner..
ade jual ke ek??kt mner??
mak aku ckp kt psr ade jual..
tp bile mase aku nk g psr??
tahun nie aku rase aku xpegi pn psr..
bkn xnk pegi tp pasar is 4 makcik2 je..agpn tmpt tue kotor + basah..
nmpknye nk o xnk aku kena gk r pegi cari biji benih tue kt pasar..
.i'm.just.a.girl.
6:27 AM
Sunday, December 6, 2009
now..
jam kt dinding menunjukkan dh 12.52a.m..
7.12.2009..
aku still wake up because aku nk ganti balik mase aku yg terbuang ptg td..
pg td..
9 am - 1pm..
ade kelas chemistry..
lame glerr..
rehat juz 15minit je..
semua part2 body aku sakit..
balik tue..
aku makan & tdo..nge2
actually i am not d type of people who loves to sleep
lebih2 ag tdo ptg
but time letih sgt je bru aku tdo ptg..
sebangun je aku dr tdo..
tgk jam dh kul 4..
dgn tergesa-gesa aku solat n skali lg aku mkan..
huhu
n after that aku wt keje2 yg xberfaedah..
time malam nie bru aku rase yg aku byk buang mase..
so..
now i am going to filled it..
my last paper,chemistry on 8.12.2009
targert subject..
so,nak or xnak
i have t study harder than other subject.
esk..
hmm,actually today..
ade kelas ag..
8.30am-2pm..
ambik kau..lagi lame..
tp xpe..xboring pn..
ckgu chemistry aku tue kelakar glerr..
byk memberi tunjuk ajar & nasihat..
i really hope that i can make it..
mlm nie gak..
my best friend called aku..
biase je,borak2..
girl's chatting.
ade cter yg menarik minat aku untuk disematkan dlm blog nie..
my best friend,T
told me that her x-bf msg her wishing gud luck..
FYI,her xbf is the person that i admire d most..
but no body knows..
back to the story..
after msg2..
her xbf ask her.
"is there's something that u want to tell me??"
he..
perasan glerr..
my best friend pe ag..
xtahan rr..igt T still terhegeh2 nk ckp ngan die sgt??
hee..please lah..
tue je..he2
after dgr cter tue..
aku rase bersyukur sgt cz i am nothing to him
and he is absolutely nothing to me..
from now on..
i will erase everything bout him..
wlpn there is no good reasons for me to hate him..
tp aku
pn xtau kenape je ttibe hari nie aku rase aku nk sgt benci die..
hmm..de satu ag cter..
ari tue lepas je habis exam Biology..
ttbe ade org pggl aku..
die ckp kwn aku yg satu kelas ngan aku time darjah satu kim salam..
aku xsangka plk ade org still remember my name although dh 10 tahun xberhubung
and xbertanye kabar brite..
memory aku ttg die pn dh hampir2 terdelete..
persoalannye,
hati dan jiwa aku trtanye2 kenape he is still remember my name??
aku igt nk tanye je die.
but my fon is out of credit..
malas nk topup..
t dh abis exam nie je igt bru nk topup
n ask him..
??
noww..1.10 am..
need to continue with my study..
.i'm.just.a.girl.
9:18 AM